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Thursday, December 7th, 2006
9:59 pm	hmmm...what you don't know about yourself Current Mood: boob Current Music: eagles...etc (Comment on this)
Saturday, November 11th, 2006
12:02 pm	"Oscar-Winning Actor Jack Palance Dies at 87" "Jack Palance, the legendary character actor who received Oscar nominations for his villainous roles in Sudden Fear and Shane, and won an Oscar for his comedy role in City Slickers, died Friday of natural causes in California; he was 87." (Comment on this)
Wednesday, January 25th, 2006
3:03 pm	the long awaited answer after a dramatic pause as usual it has been a long time since i last posted my goings on, feelings, thoughts and nonsense here in the world of the interweb. at this time i am struggling with a nyt crossword and needed a break, since riccah's lap top is here and she is nowhere to be found (i'm eating all the cookies and drinking all the milk) i have commandeered it and will no update everyone on, well ME! as Riccah posted she is moving out with yes a BOY, A GIANT BOY, named ME. no specific date has been set but it will be in the spring and things look like they will work out swimmingly. which leads me to something i don't think ive ever posted before (and who really wants to go back and check) Life is Great. Fact: bills are still getting me down, however my uncle is selling my car and this is something he knows very well. and as i have said once the car is gone my worries will go with it, erinn will get paid back, life will become more than just an endless stream of wonderment. But you must be sitting there wondering why "life is great", afterall i just admitted to having great debt, but who couldn't be happy knowing they will be waking up every morning next to the person they love sharing their life with that person. no more when am i going to see her, no more see you tomorrows, no more saying goodnight a the door before that lonely drive home. life is becoming simplier. life is also great beacause yet again i am writing a play for the fringe. but not on my own, i have enlisted the help of fringe veteran and all around showman JOEL, to get me through. a wizard with comedic nonsense and hilarious results i'm sure joel (like brent last year) will help me ground my ideas and really create something worth inviting my family and friends to come see. this year will mark my first true attempt at directing (last year was just too hectic what with the lack of script), i will not be acting(this year will be different), unless needed. joel will be the actor, hopefully brent will be our number two man, and then the girl, the female charater, thats a little tricky, it'll take some effort to cast and though i know a girl that i'd love to cast whether she'll want to do it is another question, maybe i can just ask someone we rejected last year, or maybe joel knows someone, i guess we'll see. hey erinn want to help cast it again!?! did i mention that when we move out we are getting a dog? well we are, we're gonna buy a dog, it's gonna be great and you can all come and see him when we do. do not worry about my roommates, i have figured out a few important things that will keep us connected. 1 there is a bus that goes from my new place to the old place almost directly, 2 you could actually walk in good time, 3 i am keeping my key, 4 their scrabble addiction will force them to remain friends with me so that i can continue to defeat them 5 joel and i are writing the play (joel is a roommate for the uninformed) 6 rory joel and i will make a movie someday and it will be great 7 miah is in love with me 8 threats, if they don't let me remain their friend BAD things WILL happen. okay so anywaylife is good things are turning around i'm making big life changes and decisions and i have everything i have ever wanted. have fun all. catch you on the flip side. seb Current Mood: ecstatic Current Music: music what is this a church? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, November 4th, 2005
4:05 pm	so long since i wrote to myself so me and erica are thinking about moving to hawaii. i mean i could receive stuff there and write books/plays/whatever, and erica could work at a library (they have libraries, right?) and she could take more school and fully realise her super genius status. plus it's hot there and sunny and it rains but i wouldn't have to deal with snow or blizzards. and though erica thinks it's funny i could learn how to surf, yeah i can't ride a bike but i could surf, maybe. erica made fun of the abe beard i am trying to gow, it's not my fault i have the facial hair growth of a 6 year old. booo, i want a big scruffy beard. nobody wants my car, just stupid companies that only want my money so they can pretend to sell it for me. boo i am wearing devil horns because i am scary. or because i want to be an evil genius or the leader of an underworld that is torturous and nobody wants to visit. what does it mean when the world is upside down and the sun is shining through the cracks in the cement while you're skipping towards a pool of dripping water by a tree with yellow leaves. Current Mood: the opposite of sullen Current Music: something on erica's laptop (Comment on this)
Monday, August 29th, 2005
9:16 pm	i have return-ed. hello friends of the interweb, and roommates, so i am now typing away on erica's new laptop, woowoo. we just got back from our vacation in them there united states of america. for those not in the loop we went to stpaul minnesota for four days three nights, so that we could jaunt over to somerset wisconsin to check out a rock show by famed musician and all around cool cat, jack johnson. the show was great and i finally got to meet the famed cody of folk fest fame, what a great guy. cody gave us a tour of st.paul and drove us to the concert so that we wouldn't get lost. we stayed at a hotel in the midway (yes midway, right between st.paul and minneapolis, good times). we swam and ate and walked and saw many things it was good. plus i got to hang out with erica for 4 full days no interruptions, woowoo. so yes great time was had driving was fun, even the interstate. i suggest a road trip down that way for everyone. in other news i start school and am very excited, i am gonna start receiving full time at mcnally's, no more sucker magazine shifts for me. adios for now. sebbers Current Mood: gleeful Current Music: pages turning (Comment on this)
Friday, July 8th, 2005
1:06 pm	subject: loneliness is it weird that i feel lonely because my girlfriend of 2 months is gone to folkfest for five days? Because really when you think about it i haven't been with her that long it should be easy to find things to occupy my time. still i can forget her long enough not to miss her. it's like i am counting down the seconds until she returns. somehow this seems ridiculous though, i mean it's really sweet that i miss her and i am happy that i do but it worries me that it can be this hard to have her be gone for 5 days. sorry just had to get that out. i'll be fine the room mates that are still around are keeping me busy and i'm sure she's having a blast. anyway, i've got to go rehearse, check you later kids. Current Mood: joyous Current Music: busta rhymes-gimme some more (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 27th, 2005
5:13 pm	who am i and what am i doing here? so there's been a lot of talk all around me lately about all sorts of things. congratulations on new jobs and plays and getting out of old jobs and getting an awesome venue and all that stuff but whenever i find myself receiving any accolades (i can't spell this word) i start to think about the things that i have that i feel i don't deserve. i consider myself the luckiest man on earth for all i have, great friends, great new job, nice, car, great house, an amazing family, and who could forget the amazing girlfriend. but what have i done to deserve these things. absolutely nothing. i ignore my family i'm never at my house i'm selling my car, the job is a job and not a career as far as i can see, and i treat the girl poorly because i've never felt this way before and had the same thing returned, i can't deal with it and i'm freaking out and pushing her away. obviously i know you are gonna read this babe, but i have top get it out of my head. i deal with a lot of weird shit when it comes to my relationships with people. i'm bad at keeping in touch and worse at being close. i'm needy and selfish and i'm good at manipulating people to the point where they just accept it. i feel like i'm negectful and i fel like i'm an asshole. i love the things i have and the people around me but i'm constantly worried about losing them because, let's face it, it could happen especially if i am all the things i think i am. anyway this is just another seb moment, i'll never be happy no matter what i have, what an asshole. Current Mood: fuck having a mood Current Music: brand new (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 23rd, 2005
6:45 pm	ugh so for those not present this morning, i am really bad at drinking. last night i drank way too much way too fast and on an empty stomach too. to those of you who helped me this morning, thanks a lot, i really appreciate it. to erica i send my apology, didn't mean to yell or be a jerk. just didn't feel good. anyway i have more sleeping and eating to do. check you later folks. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 20th, 2005
2:37 pm	here's the thing so you have this friend who has an awful day and then you go and get mixed up in your own nightmare that lasts all of 10 minutes and decide that the only person in the world you can call to bitch about your shit is the friend with the shitty day. then after making her feel shittier and realizing that you got caught up in your own shit and did make her feel shittier you come up with the dumb idea of not eating all day and being a grump asshole when you finally see her so that it seems like you don't even care. not only that but you become dazed and distant can't explain yourself and become afraid that somehow you are going to hurt everyone around you with the use of even one wrong word so you say nothing. you sit and become quiet even though you have a miilion things you'd like to say you become that person that you know you are sometimes where everything sits inside because you know you have it great and you're just trying to make things up so that you can also fit into the crappy life shitty day category. either way you start to ignore the little things that you are normally so good at remembering you start to drift off into a land of selfishness and individuality and you develop a complex where in you believe that nothing you do can ever satisfy the peopl you are with friendship or otherwise and that you are a let down. you drink ice water to ease the pain, maybe freeze your heart so you can't feel anything or your brain so that thinking about it just isn't possible. you put on a sad cd and think about how you can be so emotional inside but when it comes time to let that out you can do nothing but feel sorry for yourself and push that uncomfortable frustration out on everyone else in rage. you get confused and worried and you just want everything to be easy again like it was when you played all day long and the only time you thought about anything was when you were hungry or broke something and needed to think up a good scheme to get out of it. what happened to you that made you so internally directed. what appened in your childhood that made you into this introverted emotionally stunted jackass. why can you tell a perfect stranger how you feel but not the people you love. why can you think so many wondeful things but not say them out loud for fear they will come off as contrived and ridiculous. "hey mister didn't mean to be so stupid. and i confess, i stole your heart from your chest. yeah and if, yeah, and if i had the chance, i'd put it back somehow. yeah i'd do it." "hey mrs can i call when i'm away, i know that you don't mind, but i'm asking anyway, yeah and if i, yeah and if i had to light myself on fire, i'd do it, yeah i'd do it, yeah i'd do it for you." "here i sit, here i stay, this lonelyness is eating me away, this lonelyness is eating me, it's forcing me it's feeding me, this lonelyness is eating me away." so anyway a diatribe about my life masked in some ridiculous hypothetical is the dumbest idea because it's not exactly coy in anyway. (ha ha ha i almost wrote cod.) so yeah, i am an internal mess like usual but i'm tough and i can make it through and though i'm adverse to speaking publically about my issues i will say that the people around me are an asset in getting through this shit and i may just cry on your shoulders for awhile till i figure myself out. um, gumdrops and lollipops rainbows sunshine and a zebra. Current Mood: befuddled Current Music: the watchmen (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
4:30 pm	a triumphant return So i'm n a position i never wanted to be in but i like it this time around. in the past it has always been a burden to be where i am and do wha i'm doing but right now it seems simple, it seems easy, like i don't have to work at it at all and isn't that what this is supposed to be like. at least some of the time. at the beginning right, it's supposed to be effortless and it's not until later that you have to work, if at all. whatever the case i'm not worried about it, i'm not afraid of it i'm just so in the moment right now more than i ever have been before. so after the babble comes the post. so i haven't been here for like a week or so, and it's funny how so little has changed. it appears that we don't do much posting when erinn and brent aren't posting but maybe i'm wrong. either way here's what i did in the last week. found my smile and my happiness. went to three job interviews. got one job and am on the line for two others. watched spanglish and decided if nothing else that i should be the head of some film companies ad agency so that films are never so poorly or misleadingly advertised ever again. learned a bunch of new stuff. bought a book. borrowed a book from the winnipeg library system. started yet another edit of the play. decided that I, more than anything want to do this play and pursue writing and acting and directing as a career, found myself. realised that i'm much simpler than i thought i am. realised Erica is really smart (not just flattery, talk to her, you'll see) got really sick. found shit floating in the toilet bowl three days in a row, when no one was home. did the biggest load of dishes i have ever seen. and did them hard. bon appetit. got another person to watch west wing with me. decided official that my first paycheque from the new job will go into buying fish and some sort of entertainment unit as well as a new atx power supply for my computer. ummm, there is more but since i am slow and ridiculous sick and distracted i will leave it at this. "keeping quiet is hard, cause you can't keep a secret, if it never was a secret to start" this is a quote from a song i just listened to, i could check who by and what it's called but i don't care and i'm sure someone will tell me. either way i heard it and it stuck with me. seems reflective of my life sometimes. maybe i'm dumb. movies have vastly effected my life in too many ways to count and for some reason this is good and bad at the same time. i just want to believe, i just want to b-leed, i just want to be, leave. love seb. yes love. Current Mood: smitten Current Music: some band that miah listens too, they aren't half bad (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 11th, 2005
6:16 am	okay so most people know that after my shitty few days and my wonderful weekend, life has been picking up. i had a job interview last week i have two more this week. the play is basically done and we almost have a full cast. hooray for talented roommates saving the day. i have arranged to create a documentary of the play with Roommate #3, Joel, who will either film things or lend me his camera to film them and then help us edit them later. hopefully we will also be able to tape a few performances and get some good audio recording so we can do a film version of that too, put together a kick ass dvd of somesort. i am very excited. acting directing writing, life is kicking into gear. The Life Aquatic with Steve Zissou: greatest film i have seen in a long time. this movie has it all, comedy, drama, action, sea creatures, cgi, and willem dafoe doing th greatest german guy ever put in film (besides that fucking kid in eurotrip). but yes bill murray is great, owen wilson is great, jeff ("davis, i forgot my mantra!")goldblum is also pretty good as are the rest of the secondary charaters. and those interns were great. see it. went to future shop hoping to find harvey birdman attorney at law on dvd, alas no copies in, everything backordered and a very disappointed seb. but life goes on. now i must go back to editing and dreaming. farewell my internet children. Current Mood: somewhat jovial, like santa Current Music: the watchmen - silent radar (the album) (Comment on this)
Monday, May 9th, 2005
9:20 am	my name is domino harvey. i am a booty hunter. in the last 24 hours i have watched 5 movies. they have been movies of all different types and styles. they have been good bad and obtuse. falling fast isn't falling hard and it's not such a bad idea. still i am weak, not sleeping as well as i'd like to be, should take a nap tomorrow but we'll see. but now i am off to watch finding neverland. adieu. Current Mood: exhaustedn and happy Current Music: brotherhood of the wolf dubbing (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 4th, 2005
3:57 pm	"i want to fall in love tonight!" is it wrong to love a song with all your soul, knowing that you may never find someone else who remotely understands it the way you do? is it disgusting to think that a movie could effect you more than your own life does? have you ever struggled in a battle between cardinal sin and emotional damage? if you took a placebo and were convinced it was helping you would you want someone to tell you it was fake? if you knew where i was would you follow me to the place i was headed? why is it that water in a bottle or a glass on the counter goes stale, but a lake or a pond stays good is it pure volume? what makes a super gulp, super? am i annoying yet? could you listen to someone tell you they loved you, daily, when the contempt came through in their voice? do you believe deceit, or accept a lie? can you get past betrayl to see the real person that may lay behind it? if you broke a promise and the other prson would never find out would you let yourself become filled with guilt, or just decide it asn't important? if i was green would you love me? Current Mood: sexy sexy sexy sarcasm Current Music: jimmy eat world (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, May 3rd, 2005
1:03 pm	i lost my gloves and found a mitten. so this weekend was the most eventful few days of my life. at least in recent weeks. it's a scary time, but altogether i am happy. life is falling into place. i wrote a poem, in my head, so in true ball form i am going to put it here. i walk a path, and see a shadow, in darkness, run away, but where the figure, once had stood, there now a mitten, lay. not good not great just something i thought up. laterz Current Mood: happy Current Music: washing machine (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, May 2nd, 2005
12:38 am	sexy! sexy! sexy! update my heart, backlog my brain, downsize my thougts, backup my train. okay i keep getting told that i don't update enough or that i should write in here more. so, though i have dishes to do, (sorry roommates), i will do this first. this weekend has been fucking crazy. mylife has been flipped on it's heels this week. first i got into this horrible argument conflict piece of shit about casting and couldn't figure out what i liked. there was vi-ann and bubbletea and mmmm noodles and meat. a weel there was play writing and sleeping and moving. there have been movings and dealings and i made a new friend. i'm trying to be as brief as possible here so as not to bore you all to death and for those that have heard already ignore. my car is broken and i have to wait to sell it, very not cool. i missed my buddies bands playing at this house party and my entire weekend plans got changed. saying that many wonderful things came out of it. i made friends with erica, and she is probably one of the coolest people i have met in a while. i saw met because up until two days ago i didn't know her last name let alone anything else about her. now i am very intrigued to figure more and more out, if fo no other reason than we both tell really bad jokes that the other will laugh at. hitchhikers guide rules. spinal tap rules. spinal tap commentary rules. drinking rules. mini burgers and wings rule. pasta salad rules. plethora rules. JACK BLACK IS HOT!!!! (geez did i say that) YES! umm milk chocolate mousse very good, a&w very good. sitting on park bench eating A&W like a vagrant bonus points for total coolness to everyone who was there. 1000000 in jeremiah's direction for his unique sitting arrangement. thatnks again for the help buddy. if i didn't yet say it I GOT A NEW COUCH! everyone should come over and see it. someone should come over and help me test'r out. i need more movies. i love dates, the fruit not the activity, or maybe the activity not the fruit, maybe i love both? the world is falling chicken little rules i don't care if it's animated i love that shit. i am done or am i? yes. done? Yes, done. fairwell. dishtime. Current Mood: jovial, like santa but sexier. Current Music: the clickity clack of the typewriter keys. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 24th, 2005
11:03 pm	the update to .... er... um....correction...2! yes 2! okay so i feel myself become weirder and weirder everyday. when i talk with girls now i can honestly feel myself flirting as if i were a 9 year old child. struggling to find my place right now among the friends and adults in my life i feel myself slowly failing at that which i attempt and seriously setting myself up for major failure, disappointment, and overall (shit i forgot the word because i am so damn tired.). look here's the deal cause i am being way to cryptic and thats a really stupid and fucked up thing to do in a journal thats all about honesty. lately i am worrying that i haven't put enough effort into finding a job, selling my car, maintaining friendships, and working on the play. as hard as i try at these things nothing seems to get anywhere. worrk is sapping my energy and as much as i want to change jobs, i'm not sure what else i could do. i am as it were very very confused as to what i am good at what i want to do, what i can do and whether or not i have totally screwed over some of my closest friends. i've put ads in the paper advertised at work and with a sign in my car now and yet i have only gotten three calls about the car. one guy that never called back and two guys who were just assholes who won't pay anywhere near what i need to get for the car to pay off my loan. as far as maintaining friendships go i just feel like i have abandoned the d&D crew that i am drifting away from my country buddies and that i am very much screwing things up with the people i live with by living with them. maybe i am just afraid of being alone?? who knows, i've always wanted people to like me. i am not good at thinking i am alone and yet i don't know what to think anymore. i want to work on the play everyday i sit down and look at it. read through the scenes i have written. read through the finished portion and then freak out that we are going to bomb and the only thing that i thought i was good at is something i very much can't do and that i will end up living the street a lonely wino who is nothing more than half a man (which would be a challenge for me). a wise friend said recently that someone told him not to write about the crappy shit but the good stuff, the problem is i don't need to discuss the good stuff with any of you cause for the most part you were right there for it. it's the shitty stuff that all of you missed that is going on inside my head that i need to share with you. may be i just want attention because for some reason i see the happiness, and meaningless sex and all that around me and can't help but be jealous of it and wish even just for a second that i were perhaps someone else. right now it feels like nothing is going right and i really just want something to change. who knew that you couldn't run away from your problems while they were attatched to you by a tow rope. anyway i have bitched and moaned and bitched some more here's some happy news. we did auditions yesterday and since i don't know anyone who auditioned that reads this thing i shall share the feelings i had cause why the fuck do i care anyway. so we auditioned 4 people on thursday. first was my friend brodie who totally could do and be something i am just struggling to put him in any category and fear that his inexperience may be his downfall. he's a great guy though. after that brent's friend bobby came out and wowed me. i mean i assumed he would be good, and he was a very talented guy but i think i'll have to see him one more time as two of the characters to see which i prefer him as. hilarious, quick, well versed. after that it was jacquie who was though i'll feel bad if she reads this or someone says anything to her about it a little off her game, for obvious reasons. saying that i still couldn't feel her in the role, i wanted to. i really tried to like her, but i just don't see it. i am however very focused on being open about the whole thing and want to see her again in a more setup and centralised audition where we can hone in on exactly what we are looking for. last was meghann, who i have always seen in the role in some shape or form and actually visualise when writing the character, perhaps this is why i can't fairly judge jacquie but if so ican't fix that and i am just an ass. i really do believe meghann is the right choice though and want her to come back in a more structured audition where she can prove herself to be what we want and need. otherwise we have a bunch more auditions to do. i'd love to audition everyone but i'm not sure how well that would work. still by the end of the week i hope to have a cast and a better outlook. anyway i better go sleep now otherwise work will suck even more than usual. wait thats not possible. thrust booster ps i think i just needed to vent but i am honestly okay, so don't worry about me. (i am a pity whore) Current Mood: there's no name 4 what i feel! Current Music: jet set satelite - baby cool your jets (damn you miah) (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, April 22nd, 2005
9:36 pm	an answer to the age old question. how many men does it take to screw in a light bulb? the answer is three. at least thats what i witnessed at work today. this world makes no sense. i have decided the game of life blows ass. that is all for now. back to mega man. Current Mood: joyous Current Music: mega man 8 music (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 20th, 2005
1:39 pm	this time i'm gonna jump. okay so i'm on the roof of a building and the world doesn't make any sense. The air is blowing on my face, but i can't wake up, the fear has overtaken me. I try to scream but it's high-pitched, far beyond my vocal range, i am more scared than ever. I start to feel dizzy, still i can't wake up. I feel a tear on my cheek, reaching a hand up to wipe it away i realise it's blood. i feel it on my hand before i take it away, the warmth, the texture, it could be nothing else. And then I can smell it. It runs down my nose, and i see it welling up in the corners of my eyes. I can't move my legs, i'm crying blood and my voice is not what it should be. Suddenly, i see my hand more closely, i hadn't realised it as i pulled it away, but there was nail polish on my fingernails. Did i see a ring on my pinkie? what the fuck is going on. I reach my hand up to get a second look and it's not my hand at all. i let out a mouse like squeek. I'm not myself and I am now realising i can't move my neck either. I dart my eyes across the sky and scenery, searching for something, is it anything? i'm not sure what i'm looking for at all, but i'll know it when i find it. Eureka! i shout in my mind when i see a vision of myself in the window of a near by building, or rather the me that i've become, and it's not me. It's a girl, a girl that i recognize, in a white flower print dress. could it be, yes, i've become Erica. But what does this mean, why am i her? why can't i move my legs or my neck? Why do i cry bloody tears? Is this a dream or a nightmare? Am i subtle to the point of confusion? THUNDER! LIGHTENING! Rain. Salty hard rain, that stings as it hits my skin. Suddenly i have movement, but it's uncontrolled. I witness myself turn around and begin to run, as fast as i can. Crying harder than ever before now, with explosive sobbing all the way, i push myself harder now to reach top speed, my feet are bare and the ground is wet and rough. Through the blood in my eyes i see the edge of the building i am on. As i approach it i use all my will to stop, but my body is being controlled by external forces and i am hurled over the edge. Almost flying at first i am at ease for second. And then i plummet towards a gray earthen matter, cement, spinning and screaming, bleeding and hurting, i fall, faster than a speeding bullet flys. As I fall I scream out, but the air is pushed back into my lungs by the speed i choke, and the sound is thrown back into my gut, shocking my stomach and insides. i am choking and crying, and the fall is so fast, the wind cuts my face as i reach the ground, i wake up. sweating. all this happened in a dream i had last night that ended around 3:40am. needless to say i was beyond petrified by this, but since i have seen just about everyone i know die in a dream i got a glass of water and went back to bed. i didn't dream again last night, that i can remember, but when erica came by the house today it freaked me out a little. Then again i knew she was coming so i shouldn't have been scared at all. Still, it's not the first dream i've had that resembled a bad japanese cartoon and invloved someone that don't know very well. still very weird all the same. okay, i'm done. the play needs my attention. anybody else have any weird dreams lately? Current Mood: waking up Current Music: sarah slean (9 Comments |Comment on this)
1:29 pm	If You Ruled the World: by oomarilynmonroe Username national religion Jane BuddhistMuslimCatholicJewishProtestantAtheistAgnostic"yourname"ism!SexismAdult SwimismWiccaPaganismTarantinoism Type of Government CommunismDemocracyFacismAnarchy(I know this doesn't exactly make sense)RawlsismFuedal SystemMonarchy How you take over You are voted into powerYou lead a millitary uprisingYou lead a slave uprisingYou string together a post apocalyptic societyYour father was king You would name it You would overthrow ktwilight Your second in command would be rufus_says Your sex slave is sink_or_swim_ Commander of the military: riskthis Put to death for insubordination love_monster Figure head in the puppet government ooknabah You are overthrown by lowlyanglaphone Quiz created with MemeGen! this worked out fairly well! (13 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
11:16 pm	home alone, without the robbers and the antics? boring as fucking hell. okay so it's me and it's saturday night and maybe i should have made plans to go out, but i didn't it wasn't on my list of things to do and since i got none of those things done anyway it was a hopeless cause still, i was disappointed enough to be missing the weakerthans tonight and now i get home to hear faintly from the downstairs, could it be, yes the weakerthans, in my basement, playing? it couldn't be them could it, no no erinn and miah just left a cd playing to torture me just a little more. and yet, being alone in this big old house without the weakerthans and the cheering shouting fans, in le rendez vous, i wonder to myself could it have been any different. or would i be just as lonely at the concert if i had gone? "dying embers of another day, tell me what it is i want to say." okay so enough of this. time to bitch about stuff. work again today was a hell hole, i really need to go somewhere that i am not the only intelligent worker, i could even be the dumb guy noone likes as long as i'm not counted on to do everything anymore, i waste so much time there get little recognition for my efforts and do twice the work of everyone (housekeepers aside 'cause they are an honest god send). but okay so i'm getting to the point where i just might explode. mystery time. so i left today and only miah was home. i had watched tv and been on the computer but not really don much, and certainly did use the phone. yet when i returned the cordless telephone was there, laying on my bed, as if it had been used there, perhaps just a liberal toss from the door way and yet, far to in position to have just been tossed there. whatever does this mean? roommates i ask you for answers. so anyway, i think i'll eat and then go to bed. Current Mood: lonely and grumpy Current Music: still the weakerthans, you fucking bastards (5 Comments |Comment on this)